The First Time Mum

I think I say this nearly every time I write, but where has the time gone. It’s been over a month already since my last post and now we nearly have a one year old!

We had an amazing time in the UK over the Christmas period and I am still uploading photos to this account to document what we did on a daily basis. But honestly, there is so much to cram in, it is taking way longer than I first thought. Again, thank you to everyone that made that trip so special.

Life in NZ has been relatively busy since we’ve been back. My first Kiwi hen do was back in November and then we have recently celebrated Matt and Jayne’s wedding. We had the most amazing day, despite the weather! Georgia’s hen do was in Queenstown last weekend; I’m certainly getting the party and drinking practice in after a few years off! An amazing weekend with fab people and we’re looking forward to the big day this weekend!

How grown up are we all now?! It only seems like yesterday I was at uni drinking snakebites and downing vodka. Now here I am in NZ with a nearly one year old daughter and planning a wedding! On the wedding chat – wow things are expensive! We have had to really curb our expectations but it will still be an amazing day none the less, I hope.

Peggy is growing like a weed. She loves her food, so the amount of milk she drinks is getting less and less each day. It makes it so much easier now she will just eat whatever we eat. But crikey, she is a wee hungry thing. Everywhere I go I have to make sure I have snacks. Snacks are life. And she is quite partial to an olive with some blue cheese.

Peggy seems to be loving daycare. She started off there each Tuesday, which then went to every Tuesday and Wednesday which has now turned in to Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday! I still do have this guilty feeling when I drop her off, but being able to have some freedom in my day and then see what fun she’s had when I pick her up makes it all so much better.

She had her first dentist appointment last month, which seemed pretty early considering at the time she only had two teeth. But I am not going to complain! The care we get here for children is amazing. So Peggy is just about getting the gist of brushing her teeth, or at the very least having a toothbrush in her mouth! But we were advised to not put her to bed with a bottle as the formula would rot her teeth. I do understand why not, but equally we are in such a good routine with her and her sleeping I really don’t wait to upset the applecart too much, so she still has a bottle in bed each time she has a nap, or going to bed in the evening.

I am STILL on the job hunt. I’ve been lucky to have some interviews for some fab roles, but unfortunately missed out on a couple. Originally I was after something part time, but there are just not the jobs out there, or any that really excite me. If I’m going to go back to work I want to enjoy it, not be bored out of my brain. So I am really determined to find the right thing, that will suit me and our family.

I wont lie though, it has been a tough time. I have always been a very busy, independent wee sole and now I am completely depended on by this small human. We are lucky that she is so easy and happy to be dragged along pretty much anywhere to anything. However, I am really struggling with the constant ‘what shall we do today?’. I have never spent so much time in Oamaru. I think I know that place like the back of my hand now. One day we spent nearly seven hours there, just mooching around! I just cannot be stuck in the house all day, it actually drives me insane.

I have had a few wee meltdowns recently, so thanks so everyone who has put up with me! I seem to have become quite an emotional person and I certainly get quite upset when I’m feeling down but can’t explain why. I am sure, or I hope I am, that I am not the only mum out there feeling like this. I know I can always talk to Hayden about anything and my close friends too, which I am very grateful for. I think it is really important that we talk about it and don’t bottle it all up.

Peggy is an absolute gem and we all love her to bits. She is extremely spoilt and we are just in the process of organising her 1st Birthday party. Complete with a unicorn bouncy castle. I think this is more for me than her!!